Today, my name is Day One.

I'm not usually one for writing my intimate life for many too see, but I honestly think this deserves recognition. I've had a bit too much of this. It is way too much for me right now and I'm getting sick of humoring people. I'm done with this immature bullshit. I'm trying to move forward in life, not backwards. I'm getting sick of reviving past relationships. Why should I continue doing things and dealing with people who have brought negativity to me in the past? I'm not gonna sit here and pretend that I'm Little Miss Perfect because I'm not. I point out my faults to those of importance.

I have fallen out of relationships with people who I loved dearly, and those have happened for a reason. I do not beg friends or boyfriends. I've been hurt and I have caused pain onto others, but honestly, I'm getting sick of it. ARGH!!! I am soo angry right now. Why do people have to bring their bullshit around me? GO AWAY!

This part right here is for that one person. Grow up. Seriously. Think about the things you tell me and tell me if the things you say are grown. I mean.. Look at you. Wanting independence from the people and things surrounding you. You look grown and you act grown sometimes, but at the end of the day, your anger gets the best of you. I honestly hope you get whats coming to you, and that's not a threat. Even through all the negative things that happen to you whether its family, me, friends etc. what you don't realize is that you hurt people and you know what I mean by that. But whatever. Enough about you.

I don't like stupid and especially immature people. I'm almost 20 and although at times I still act like a kid, I'm moving on and trying to be better in the things I do and the things I am involved with. But when I'm surrounded by these kinds of people, what else is there to do but lock them off? I don't have the patience to sit here and try to educate people on what it means to have sense. That is something they'll have to figure out for themselves. I am not your mother. I have no children. So please, either smarten up or get the fuck outta my way.

In regards to my love life [or lack there of] I'm back to square one. I'm done with humouring you. This is day one.

Today, my name is Taken.

While on the bus going home, I notice this light skinned guy come on a couple stops before I had to get off. He looked at me, and I put my head back down and continued to listen to my music. Nearing my stop, I pulled the yellow cord to signal the bus driver that I wanted to leave the bus, he did the same. As I stood up from the back of the bus I looked back up to see him standing at the nearest exit, which just so happens to be the one I was also go to be standing at. When the bus stopped, he took a step down and I followed. As the doors closed and as I looked both ways before crossing the street to head home, he put his hand on my elbow and asked my name. I told him my name was Mouse and he proceeded to ask for my number. I told him countless times that I had a boyfriend and that I didn't like to keep many other males as friends because I already had enough. Turning up my music in the same ear that he was talking to me in, I focused on my path home. Coincidentally, he lives near me and was walking along side me for a while. Deciding to break my view of the sidewalks and the cracks in between, I looked up ahead to see if I was walking in the path of any oncoming individuals; I was. It was another light skinned boy, one who I've never seen before. As I approached the boy walking towards us, he looked up and muttered "Hi". I said hello and before I knew it, both of the boys had gotten into a heated argument over me. I haven't the faintest who either of these boys were, but they were bickering over who's girl I was. I thought it was best to leave them at their dispute and head home. I had walked away and left these two strangers in a heated argument. Now, please allow me to break away from my formal speech. What the fuck!? I have no fucking clue who these dudes were and they were fighting over me? Like.. What the fuck? Can someone please explain to me what the hell just happened? I don't know any of these people from morning and they're getting ready to like punch each others faces in? Arf?

Today, my name is Insane.

He's too cute for his own good, but WHAT THE FUCK was Pharelle on when he decided that he was going to order his food in song and dance so early in the morning? First things first, how is it that the two cashiers were gonna call the police on him? I mean.. How could you NOT recognise who he is? Second thing is why were they running from him? Third.. WHY WAS HIS DANCING AND SINGING HIS ORDER!? Smh..

Today, my name is Poetic Justice.

While in my Modern and Contemporary Literature class, my professor was analyzing 2 poems that really got to me. One of them is called Requiem, and it is by Robert Louis Stevenson. This poem really stuck in my head and I was so interested in it, so I decided to post it. Requiem seems to be kind of a self realization kind of poem. He speaks of his death, and it is written beautifully. Describing the night and his grave.

Under the wide and starry sky,
Dig the grave and let me lie.
Glad did I live and gladly die,
And I laid me down with a will.

This be the verse you grave for me:
Here he lies where he longed to be;
Home is the sailor, home from the sea,
And the hunter home from the hill.

The second poem is called This Be the Verse. This was written by Philip Larkin. This is quite blunt and because of that, it is easy to see what his point is quickly. It is an angry poem written by a cynical man and I love it.

They fuck you up, your mum and dad.
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats.

Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don't have any kids yourself.

Just wanted to get that out.. These poems are just down and out. They are dark and eerie which is why I guess I like them so much..